The Fear In My Heart Has A Name

…and his name is LUCAS!  I’ve written many stories and status updates about Lucas lately…for good reason.  He strikes fear in my heart.

He knows no fear…I, on the other hand, feel it all for him.  Neither Zach nor Claire strike this kind of fear in  my heart.  They are a little more reserved and a lot less impulsive.  They both seem to have a good healthy fear of, well, FEAR!  Lucas has none…zip…zero…zilch!  He will do anything, and I do mean anything for a laugh.  AND he has a habit of picking friends who like to lead him down a bad path…he is a follower, not a leader.  Couple that with his lack of a regard for fear and we have a recipe for disaster.

And I have no idea what to do about it.  I laugh at his antics but they strike fear in my heart at the same time.  That he truly believes “Jackass 3” is the best movie of all time is scary as all get out to me.  I know it’s partially his ADHD.  I know kids with ADD and ADHD have impulsivity control.  I get it.  I do.  But I don’t know how to reign it in now.  I used to know, when he was little, but now it’s a whole new ballgame with a whole new set of rules and I have to learn new ones or invent some of my own…maybe both.

I guess I better get on this task pretty quickly, before he goes down a path I don’t want him to go down.  Any suggestions are more than welcome, because I need all the help I can get squelching the fear in my heart who has a name…Lucas.

Oh, for the love of my children…

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